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[Saturday, June 28, 2003]
i can see it now. "and the award for most consistent below-average deptest scores goes to..." i thought i had left ms padua's test archetype in zobel. fyi she writes the kind of test that you breeze through and the next day you learn that you somehow failed it. we used to say that she graduated bs testmaking. owel i guess i kinda deserved it. i stayed up until 4am chatting and only opened my book a half-hour before the test started. i was so bummed i didn't even go to prayer meeting. i hope next week runs smoother. hey they'll finally be playing our radio play on monday [sa puntod... ng ina mo!]. we got delayed because ms ortiz was absent wednesday to friday. hopefully she'll be back on monday. at least then my day will start on a high note.
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 8:20 PM
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i flunked my first basicon quiz. as in 0.0. pardon me if i didn't memorize every last acronym in the computer world. am i the only guy who doesn't care what the extended forms of midi [musical instrument digital interface] or cobol [common business oriented language] are? the good news is that it was just a classroom quiz. the bad news is that our deptest is in 12 hours anyway.
i had lunch with my blockmates frytz and geric. frytz finished telling me the totality of book 5 and i'm officially hooked but i'm not about to whip out 1500 pesos for my own copy. i called fen after i clocked out. i just realized it was her last day today so spending a few credits extra didn't hurt. i hung out with saul and mikey after lunch and with jil after mikey left. i spent the rest of the afternoon sticking five peso coins through my friends' [and their friends'] foreheads. that cheered me up a little.
yaps showed me a neat javascript to display random text so i used that to post lines from a few of my favorite songs on the sidebar. mon read through my poems and told me that she liked them. maybe i do have a future in literature.
i'm crossing my fingers.
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 1:48 AM
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i had lunch with my blockmates frytz and geric. frytz finished telling me the totality of book 5 and i'm officially hooked but i'm not about to whip out 1500 pesos for my own copy. i called fen after i clocked out. i just realized it was her last day today so spending a few credits extra didn't hurt. i hung out with saul and mikey after lunch and with jil after mikey left. i spent the rest of the afternoon sticking five peso coins through my friends' [and their friends'] foreheads. that cheered me up a little.
yaps showed me a neat javascript to display random text so i used that to post lines from a few of my favorite songs on the sidebar. mon read through my poems and told me that she liked them. maybe i do have a future in literature.
i'm crossing my fingers.
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 1:48 AM
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[Thursday, June 26, 2003]
we discussed the compro1 deptest today and the correct answers were less than encouraging. yesterday i thought a 4.0 was in the bag but now i'll most probably get a 3.0 or a 3.5 if i'm lucky. i was thinking what if i went to csb instead and i figured sure i'd be a lot richer and might even graduate something cum laude but i'd miss out on all the new friends i made here. now, don't be pilosopo and say i'd have made friends there too; i agree with kris - dlsu gives me a feeling of belonging.
i took a couple of minutes off altrig to bond with some of my blockmates over a quick snack. ms franco consequently marked us all absent. grrr. but hey it was worth it. frytz brought his copy of book 5 to lunch. he told me the gist of what he had already read and it sounds promising. looks like it was worth the delay. same goes for the v1.10 patch of diablo ii. can't wait.
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 7:37 PM
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i took a couple of minutes off altrig to bond with some of my blockmates over a quick snack. ms franco consequently marked us all absent. grrr. but hey it was worth it. frytz brought his copy of book 5 to lunch. he told me the gist of what he had already read and it sounds promising. looks like it was worth the delay. same goes for the v1.10 patch of diablo ii. can't wait.
sige ingat.ü
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[Wednesday, June 25, 2003]
happy birthday niks! i wasn't able to go to katipunan though. our manang didn't show up from her vacation so i had to play watchdog the whole day. but in fairness the experience was educational. for example i learned that one of the great tragedies of life is having unlimited net and nobody to chat with. and that i find nancy castiglione extremely annoying. and that i find the show ang tamang daan even more annoying than nancy castiglione [if i wanted fallacies i'd have repeated third year philo. and how do they know they're right, anyway?]. and that the remix of daniel bedingfield's if you're not the one takes the cake.
at least i had chili-flavored kornik to keep me sane. that and rediscovering classic dos games. i got so desperate i even downloaded the abandonware versions of golden axe and doom. neither cheered me up much though.
i just got home from school, actually. we had a deptest in compro1 6pm to 9pm [apparantly scheduled as such so all blocks could take it simultaneously] which was ok i guess. i hope i get a 4.0. i need good grades to balance out my math scores. i didn't perfect it though. excuse me for not realizing that if (A==25.8 && B==16 && C==3), !(A/B<=C && A+C<=B*C) || C/B results in a zero.
maybe it was the lack of classes yesterday or the extended school hours or kris, saul, mikey, and i bitching each other out over lunch, but today felt different. kinda sad and blurry, like trying to sleep with the tv blaring in the other room. or maybe i'm just reacting to the weather. i hate it when it's hot then it rains. you put on your jacket to keep the rain off and five minutes later you're sweating like a pig.
my eyes are starting to feel gritty. i'll catch a few z's and get back to you guys in the am.
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 11:11 PM
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at least i had chili-flavored kornik to keep me sane. that and rediscovering classic dos games. i got so desperate i even downloaded the abandonware versions of golden axe and doom. neither cheered me up much though.
i just got home from school, actually. we had a deptest in compro1 6pm to 9pm [apparantly scheduled as such so all blocks could take it simultaneously] which was ok i guess. i hope i get a 4.0. i need good grades to balance out my math scores. i didn't perfect it though. excuse me for not realizing that if (A==25.8 && B==16 && C==3), !(A/B<=C && A+C<=B*C) || C/B results in a zero.
maybe it was the lack of classes yesterday or the extended school hours or kris, saul, mikey, and i bitching each other out over lunch, but today felt different. kinda sad and blurry, like trying to sleep with the tv blaring in the other room. or maybe i'm just reacting to the weather. i hate it when it's hot then it rains. you put on your jacket to keep the rain off and five minutes later you're sweating like a pig.
my eyes are starting to feel gritty. i'll catch a few z's and get back to you guys in the am.
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 11:11 PM
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[Tuesday, June 24, 2003]
yesterday i saw the bag of my dreams. i was walking around campus and there was this guy [evidently also just walking around] with a quardruple-life-size inflatable purple jansport on his back. the moment i saw it i was suddenly possessed with an intense desire to go to school looking like pong pagong. friends, only six months to go 'til christmas!
i tanked the malate interview today. chris [the interviewer] asked me what i would do if someone from malate started stalking me. i answered, "sasabihin ko sa kanya na bading ako." saul later informed me that chris was in fact gay.
ka-boom!
kris is accusing me of stealing saul's crush [who shall hereforth and forever remain nameless]. what happened to all's fair in love and war? kidding aside, saul assured me that past is past and that she enjoys my company anyway. besides, i'm not serious about anything.
yet.
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 6:07 AM
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i tanked the malate interview today. chris [the interviewer] asked me what i would do if someone from malate started stalking me. i answered, "sasabihin ko sa kanya na bading ako." saul later informed me that chris was in fact gay.
ka-boom!
kris is accusing me of stealing saul's crush [who shall hereforth and forever remain nameless]. what happened to all's fair in love and war? kidding aside, saul assured me that past is past and that she enjoys my company anyway. besides, i'm not serious about anything.
yet.
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 6:07 AM
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[Sunday, June 22, 2003]
i was just chatting with miko savady. haven't seen him in years. no that's not quite true. i saw him mid-april during zobel enrollment but couldn't talk to him much then so i tried tracking him down. i finally got his email address [through snooping in the blogs of our common friends] and sent him a message. luckily he also uses yahoo messenger so we were able to carry out a halfway decent conversation. ah yes the miracle of technology. i took the opportunity to ask him if there was any truth to the rumor that he was a rugby varsity. too bad there wasn't.
on the upside it looks like my dlsu account has become reliable again. i went online half-a-dozen times today and haven't encountered any problems so far. well, aside from "sorry all circuits are busy now please try your call later", of course.
in other news my course has started to go to my head. i fell asleep after lunch and had this weird dream where i was arguing with some guy about the nature of random-access memory. i was saying that the computer wouldn't find the correct data if the memory units were not correctly identified and he was saying it was the same difference.
non-techies can be so annoying.
sige ingat.ü
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on the upside it looks like my dlsu account has become reliable again. i went online half-a-dozen times today and haven't encountered any problems so far. well, aside from "sorry all circuits are busy now please try your call later", of course.
in other news my course has started to go to my head. i fell asleep after lunch and had this weird dream where i was arguing with some guy about the nature of random-access memory. i was saying that the computer wouldn't find the correct data if the memory units were not correctly identified and he was saying it was the same difference.
non-techies can be so annoying.
sige ingat.ü
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[Saturday, June 21, 2003]
the malate [literary folio] test was high school english-y. i can't believe ms padua is still haunting me. at least i had an advantage over the other applicants in the literary knowledge portion of the test. they also asked me to write a poem about legolas. yuk. i paired him up with gimli, haha. anyway i finished by 5pm so it was off to cell group.
i took an express jeep because i was in a hurry and halfway to bicutan. i suddenly noticied that it was raining. hard. on the service road. but not on the expressway. i even stuck out my hand to double-check. i was convinced that god's sense of humor was working overtime until i looked up... and saw the skyway. oh, right. when the senses start to diminish with age, common sense goes first.
so naturally during the runs crossing bicutan and sucat i was soaked to the bone. of course this had to be the first day since school started when i did not bring my jacket. the irony is that whenever i got into a jeep, the rain slacked off. grrr.
since it was rush hour, there was a considerable queue for a trike from lopez. mostly grade and high school students. i lined up behind one guy and then i realized that he was one of the youths i facilitated during the last sk lss. he was looking at me like he saw me before too so i smiled at him [no i am not a pedophile, thank you very much]. then he took a trike and left. maybe i should have talked to him.
our topic during cell group was knowing yourself and one of my realizations is that the way i love myself is through my relationships. i justify my existence with people who need me, so to speak. although "need" is a stronger word than i wish to use and "want" is a place i do not wish to visit at this point in time. ate pats called me an "analyst" [whatever that means] and said she couldn't wait to know me better.
dan dan dan!
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 7:23 AM
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i took an express jeep because i was in a hurry and halfway to bicutan. i suddenly noticied that it was raining. hard. on the service road. but not on the expressway. i even stuck out my hand to double-check. i was convinced that god's sense of humor was working overtime until i looked up... and saw the skyway. oh, right. when the senses start to diminish with age, common sense goes first.
so naturally during the runs crossing bicutan and sucat i was soaked to the bone. of course this had to be the first day since school started when i did not bring my jacket. the irony is that whenever i got into a jeep, the rain slacked off. grrr.
since it was rush hour, there was a considerable queue for a trike from lopez. mostly grade and high school students. i lined up behind one guy and then i realized that he was one of the youths i facilitated during the last sk lss. he was looking at me like he saw me before too so i smiled at him [no i am not a pedophile, thank you very much]. then he took a trike and left. maybe i should have talked to him.
our topic during cell group was knowing yourself and one of my realizations is that the way i love myself is through my relationships. i justify my existence with people who need me, so to speak. although "need" is a stronger word than i wish to use and "want" is a place i do not wish to visit at this point in time. ate pats called me an "analyst" [whatever that means] and said she couldn't wait to know me better.
dan dan dan!
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 7:23 AM
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[Friday, June 20, 2003]
the most unreliable things in life are free
i heard the song pare ko by the eraserheads this morning. the first song i hear always affects my mood for the day so i feel pretty good now. there's something really special about classic songs. maybe it's because the memories we associate with them are [in my case] from our childhood or summat. i always think of the times in high school when someone would bring a guitar and we'd have a 'jamming session'.
i miss playing my guitar. just in case you didn't hear, it died of old age. my sister recommended one in sm bicutan. i have to admit it looks good. black with nylon strings and a thin body [to prevent warping]. correction: i don't miss playing my guitar. i miss playing a guitar. mine was crap.
sige ingat.ü
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[Tuesday, June 17, 2003]
chlorine, jeepneys, and the manila skyline
and that brings me to today. what they tell you about the pool is that it's indoor and not heated so it's kinda cold. what they don't is that it's freezing and that the chlorine they use is industrial-strength [read: if you don't wear goggles, you'll be legally blind for the next 24 hours]. oh and did i mention that i even had to buy new trunks yesterday because the material has to be lycra, not polyester? right.
anyway the laps by themselves weren't that bad and all the moving around warms you up so you don't feel the cold after a while. what got me was that around the fourth or fifth lap i got a cramp in my left leg. then on the next lap i got one in my right. welcome to my life. the lousy thing about cramps is that while you're stretching out your legs [or foot or arm since all of them cramped eventually] you can't move around much so pretty soon you've got second stage hypothermia.
and did i forget to mention the chlorine? evidently because the pool is indoor, the chlorine can't evaporate so it hangs over the pool like some invisible fog of optic death. by 430 my left eye had shut down and my right was winking every half-second. it kinda feels like somebody with sandy fingers is playing mixmaster with your eyeballs. anyway our instructor ["call me 'mister' for short"] told us that if we'd lapped 20 times we could hit the showers. naturally i just up and went.
on the way in, one of my blockmates told me that if i got cramps, i should improve on my enduarance. tell me something i don't know. anyway pe was the only crappy thing that happened to me that day [aside from the results of my algtrig quiz] so it wasn't so bad really.
heading home, i rode the lrt then a jeepney and got off at bicutan. waiting for a jeep to sucat, i happened to glance at the lights on the skyway. they were glowing deep yellow in the rainy fog. it was really picturesque until i realized it was smog i was looking at, not mist. pollution sucks.
there were a lot of commuters at the jeepney stop so i chose to stay on the left-most side, thinking to grab a passing jeep as soon as it turned the corner. then i thought to move right so that when it stopped i would be nearer the 'door'. of course as soon as i moved away a jeep stopped where i had been standing and left just as fast. it's a lot like life really. you get so comfortable expecting some opportunity that when a slightly different one comes along you have to work to grab it and sometimes even end up losing both.
would you believe it took me longer to travel the half-kilometer distance from bicutan to my village than it took me getting from taft to bicutan? i fell asleep in the jeep and when i woke up were hadn't moved. i guess traffic is bad because school's started but i never thought i'd see the day that parañaque would have traffic on a regular basis. i'll take the suburbs over a metropolis any day.
i was on my street when i noticed that the streetlights were also foggy. that's when it hit me. it was that damn chlorine all along! and my legs are still crampy. luckily i don't have homework tonight. i'll just hit the hay and hope that my eyes recover by tomorrow morning. the good news is that next tuesday is manila day so i don't have classes. the bad news is that the week after it'll be cramps all over again. maybe i should start working out to develop 'endurance'.
whatever.
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 11:15 PM
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[Monday, June 16, 2003]
it's still raining. the kind that sounds like it's saying "haha you're wet". i was in fact. i was sloshing home from school to the tune of some old nursery rhyme:
doctor foster went to gloster
in a shower of rain
he stepped in a puddle right up to his middle
and never went there again
evidently, gloster exists right outside our subdivision gate. and of course the first vehicle to drive by after i 'wet myself' was my former school bus. you just can't buy publicity like that. naturally the rain stopped the moment i stepped indoors.
anyway i'm off to watch the ring [now one of my favorite movies] then i have some more compro1 homework. i'll probably be up until 4am as usual. by this time next year it'll be coffee flowing through my veins.
sige ingat.ü
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doctor foster went to gloster
in a shower of rain
he stepped in a puddle right up to his middle
and never went there again
evidently, gloster exists right outside our subdivision gate. and of course the first vehicle to drive by after i 'wet myself' was my former school bus. you just can't buy publicity like that. naturally the rain stopped the moment i stepped indoors.
anyway i'm off to watch the ring [now one of my favorite movies] then i have some more compro1 homework. i'll probably be up until 4am as usual. by this time next year it'll be coffee flowing through my veins.
sige ingat.ü
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[Sunday, June 15, 2003]
i celebrated my 18th birthday yesterday. it's kinda funny because it was the worst in recent memory. it was like murphy's law just replaced the philippine constitution.
in any case i was just thinking about birthdays in general. being anniversary-type events, they're like your loved ones saying "hey thanks for being around the past year blah blah blah" which is actually kinda touching. except for the fact that most of the people i'd assumed would greet me kinda didn't. gar.
i stayed up until 4am the night before doing my compro1 homework [a program to turn integers into roman numerals] thinking i'd sleep in anyway so might as well get it over with. but no. my dad woke me up at 730 because we were eating lunch at his friend's house to [oh the irony!] celebrate my birthday. why get me up so early? his friend lives in katipunan. oh, right.
we stayed there until lunch and were on our way back when my dad remembers this other friend of his whom he hasn't seen in 17 years. so naturally we had to pass by. problem was my dad couldn't remember exactly where she lived. third time was a charm and we were on our way [again] by 2pm.
i'd promised my friends i'd meet them in town by 3 so i had just enough time to check my mail before shoving off. my pc chose this precise moment to crash, taking microsoft office and all my mp3s with it. now of course it started to rain. i asked god why he hated me and he blessed me with a blackout on top of everything else.
my dad was kind enough to offer me a ride to town [after a few hundred pokes from my mom] so i got to powerbooks by 430. i said hi to saul and kris but *kris casts frozen orb*. anyway i apologized for being late and i suppose all's well that ends well.
after prayer meeting i was feeling better so i sat down with my family and a half-gallon of ice cream. my mom asked me what i was gonna do now that i was 18. i told her i'd watch a porn flick. cue kodak moment.
in hindsight i guess it wasn't all bad.
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 6:19 PM
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in any case i was just thinking about birthdays in general. being anniversary-type events, they're like your loved ones saying "hey thanks for being around the past year blah blah blah" which is actually kinda touching. except for the fact that most of the people i'd assumed would greet me kinda didn't. gar.
i stayed up until 4am the night before doing my compro1 homework [a program to turn integers into roman numerals] thinking i'd sleep in anyway so might as well get it over with. but no. my dad woke me up at 730 because we were eating lunch at his friend's house to [oh the irony!] celebrate my birthday. why get me up so early? his friend lives in katipunan. oh, right.
we stayed there until lunch and were on our way back when my dad remembers this other friend of his whom he hasn't seen in 17 years. so naturally we had to pass by. problem was my dad couldn't remember exactly where she lived. third time was a charm and we were on our way [again] by 2pm.
i'd promised my friends i'd meet them in town by 3 so i had just enough time to check my mail before shoving off. my pc chose this precise moment to crash, taking microsoft office and all my mp3s with it. now of course it started to rain. i asked god why he hated me and he blessed me with a blackout on top of everything else.
my dad was kind enough to offer me a ride to town [after a few hundred pokes from my mom] so i got to powerbooks by 430. i said hi to saul and kris but *kris casts frozen orb*. anyway i apologized for being late and i suppose all's well that ends well.
after prayer meeting i was feeling better so i sat down with my family and a half-gallon of ice cream. my mom asked me what i was gonna do now that i was 18. i told her i'd watch a porn flick. cue kodak moment.
in hindsight i guess it wasn't all bad.
sige ingat.ü
posted by stani at 6:19 PM
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